Those that know me know that 50% of the time I am crying for one reason or another!
Ecstatic and excited..crying! sad and depressed..crying! frustrated or angry...crying! overwhelmed and stressed out...crying! I see an old couple crossing the street holding hands...crying! lol!
It's weird because I usually pride myself on being good with words, articulating how I feel, expressing my emotions and yet the majority of the time I believe the reason I cry is because I don't have words. In one of his songs Ben Harper wrote "only tears speak for my heart" and God, that seems to be my life theme song.
But just because I can name it and understand it, doesn't mean it makes it any less awkward to openly weep in public.
Yesterday morning I woke up not feeling 100% (could be the complete lack of activity from the toe nail incident) and then when I posted up at a Starbucks for the afternoon I kept seeing snap chats, instagrams and facebook status's about the Seahawks parade. I swear EVERY SINGLE person I know that lives in a 50 mile radius of Seattle was at the parade. The combination of feeling physically crummy and emotionally home-sick was too much. So I sat at my computer with tears streaming down my face.
The guy to my right and the women to my left kept staring at me (rightfully so) but jeez...they could have been a little more stealth...and perhaps asked if I was OK!
But its OK because I woke up this morning refreshed and renewed! The home-sickness has vanished for now. But as much as I LOVE the Seahawks there is still resentment bubbling deep down...why did they have to win the super bowl the one year I'm out of town?!? JERKS! (but not you ET, I will still gladly marry you!)
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